Currently Listening Stay By Jeremy Camp see related

why do i always feel like posting when i don't really have anything to post? i mean i didn't think i had something to say those last few posts. I knwo it doesn't look that way... lol   it was just kinda like i hit one key on the board here and then "blah".  

so here's something to do so that you don't completely waste your time reading my post ( i keep saying post instead of using pronouns or some variation for the word post...i'm tired.):

www.votejesus4logan.org  

exciting times people, exciting times.  i'm really not saying that lightly at all.  this IS something to post (verb) about....i just dont' really have the words yet.

i really just felt like posting (verb) what i was listening to lately cause that's my favorite part of this deal. (my gosh, a variation) 

alright i really shouldn'tve drank that energy drink... 

Currently Listening Faith By Jason Upton see related

my emotions ( not so much thoughts ) about ATF

well this is a couple weekends overdue. :) i guess i havent' thought ot put anything on here about ATF simply because...well honestly because i was disappointed.

I shouldn't be... i tried  not to get my hopes set on what I, ME thought should happen but i guess i jusut expected their to be like this whole mini revival thing going on in my group where even the hardest in my group could not hold back from God any longer. Yes, i know that some serious seed was planted...a couple of the girls and a mom(!) seemed to really get connected with God. And since then at least 5 of the girls have expressed a lot interest in going on a mission trip.Maybe more... haven't seen some of the kids since then. Ican see a new level of maturity in others as well. I guess a lot happened! lol i'm at least glad their wasn't a bunch of blubbering and tears and fired up emotions that lasted for like 2 days to no avail.   i really shouldn't complain....some awesome things happened and were realized by some in our group...new levels in their walk with the Lord. So why do i feel so discourages still? something inside me aches....when i think of these teeneagers who are at sucha crossroad in their life and all the things they have to battle against in themselves and in those around them.... i just so desperately want them to KNOW Jesus. Not just MAYBE halfway listen to us talk about Him. i want to see them look at me and tell me " Jesus is the only one worth living for" with passion and love in thier eyes. too much to ask? i don't think so. Should i expect it now, or at least anyday now?  i will anyway. Fakeness, Religion, Destruction in families,all that is subjest to Jesus Christ and though those nasty things have won some battles, they will not win this war.  

but to add some fluff to my account i just want to say that i knew that Bro. Steve was a bad driver but reckless would not have quite been the right word for his display of 'skill' that weekend....more like suicidal. And since there were kids on board murderous would have been the more correct term. poor josh jsut couldn't chug down enough meds! it really was funny. You just had to be there. and the cross walks! oh the cross walks! But to bro. steve it was more like, "what crosswalks?"

And we won't even talk about those motel rooms.

so i''ve decided to go on a mission trip with one or more of the girls with teen mania. More on that later.

Currently Reading The Final Quest By Rick Joyner see related

that's right...2 entries today.  it's called catching up. giving it in small bites to my faithful readers out there. (oh c'mon! jsut let me believe your faithful, even though i get few posts...except for leasia...thank you leasia! :) )

I must post about the recent current events of late that have happened in the last week or so.

1st of all but most def not the biggest....my driver's side window decided to become so lodged in the track that it could not contain the pressure and shattered into a million and 3 pieces at about 12:30 in the AM when i was jsut leaving to go back and housesit and let a dog out that continuously pooped in her crate at the time because she didn't have room for the crap because puppies were seriously trying to pop out instead of the...you know. Only it wasn't time for them too esplode out of her so i only had to worry about the filthy crate at 1am that nite and c. 5 AM the next morning and the unclosable hole in my cardoor. By the way, it rained that night. But i didn't know it for i was sound  asleep and not worrying about rain because THE SKY WAS CRYSTAL CLEAR when i got back to cindy's. So.... i still don't have a window a week later but the mechanic guy finally called me back...this morning. Soon this will all be a fond memory. Nice weather we've been having lately.

of other news( and pretty sudden news at that):

we are offcially moved out of our church's building. That season of this part of His body is officially over. And it's pretty amazing. We didn't even know till 2 weeks ago that we were even goign to have to move out of it, and by "it" I don't only mean the building we meet in but also my pastor and his family's house and home. Everything was going to be sold if they didnt' come up with the money to buy. Well, to make a long story short....God has a way of pushing us out of the box when He knows we won't do it ourselves. This has been the most incredible experience as far as watching what God can do in people's hearts. NO ONE has been resentful about this that i can tell and EVREYONE is full of expectancy and peace that God is going to really move because of this. A word had been givin to Becca that we are to wait on Him, Bro. steve knew he didn't need to go looking for anything but wait on Him. And He is already providing. Last friday was when we were supposed to have the money for the building or lose it, and last firday was when Bro. steve was sitting at Happy Days having coffee and teh waitress told him about a house in the country that belonged to (get this, if you can) the cook's mother's friend.....  he and miss clara went to look at it that day. And moved in last sunday. I'm telling you...i think i've had dreams about the property it's on. It's a beautilful wide lot 6 miles from town but in the country that's jsut as green and big and open as you can imagine. And the house!!! it's beautiful and it's HUGE!! perfect for home meetings!!!! Which is what will be happening for as long as God intends. I am EXCITED! it's like a new beginning for real! Needless to say, we didn't buy that old building.

 So mnay new thigns happening and so many things going on in my heart that just ..... makes me love the fact that i'm serving a God who wants to enjoy this life with me. And abundantly. Good and bad times...He wants to live it with me now. This knowledge makes me feel so much more alive.  I feel abundant and i feel like life is so rich ...i trust in my Daddy God. I believe He wants to give me the world! He even said so in Joshua 1:3. "every place that the sole of your foot shall tread upon  that have i given unto you"  he delights to give us everything in His riches, which are endless. As soon as He looks at your face, His eyes get a sparkle and He says "oh, i love this precious one so much i want to pour out evetrything i have for her/him" ..we must trust HIm. Because like any good parent He has to give it to us when we can handle it. Because though a daddy may want his daughter to have the best car he can afford she must first learn to drive. Waiting is a pain but anything worth having takes pain to get...i guess cause we don't appreciate as fully otherwise.    Now, if i could just remember that tomorrow....nah, Jesus loves me too much to let me forget.

wow... there's an update for ya.

well dear reader...congrats if you made it this far. If not, it felt great to spill.  It is, after all, a journal.

i love y'all! i really do. :o)

Currently Listening No Sir, Nihilism Is Not Practical By Showbread see related

hooowee....

i don't know why, but my brain feels fried. I didn't do any kind of studying, i didn't work very hard today at all...played with puppies mostly at my "job" (2 litters now...it's too much cute,  i don't think my voice can take in more high decibles of  "oh my gosh, they're so CUTE!!!!!!!" )   The one thing i can think of is that, whether i know it or not, being around the spiritual struggles of those teens in the Youth group just wears on me. I always come away form being with them with a huge headache and a feeling that i serioualy need a huge refill of encouragement. There are so many things to deal with in them, so many things that they deal with themselves...and tell me about. So many things i can't fix myself, right now, for them. They are in sooo much pain it's unbearable. Oh i want to adopt every one of them!!!!! but i can't.  I must trust In the Lord. I'm just a vessel.. a tool...a voice... a hand... a hug...  a stern look...for God to use... And most of the time i just don't feel like i've done enough for Him, haven't done it the right way, coulda said something that would've impacted their walk with God more, whether there is a walk or not. So many things are beyond me that iv'e never encountered before....that i don't know how to deal with. "just another oppurtunity to hear staright from God about this instead of my own wisdom of which i have none on this topic"  i tell myself. And i believe it. I still have an undying passion to see them ALL get addicted to Jesus and sell out to Him, whether i have a hand in it or not. But my part seems so.....ineffective.  i want to see big results NOW!!! hahaha

I jsut want them to get it.

That's why i'm just gonna go on and believe and pray that every one of them will be stirred to go on a mission trip @ Aquire the Fire... why not ask God for soemthing like that??? Shoot.   We're only taking kids that are willing to work though...and these kids have worked. and worked. and deserve to go. All the tickets are covered and i'm now getting them in the mail . Got hotel rooms reserved. Alright God, do Your thing. PREpare.

Currently Reading Unbroken Curses By Rebecca Brown, Daniel Yoder see related

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